TiRED

Have u ever feel tired? I guess everyone have been feeling that in their life, isn’t it? But what I mean here, tired with something, someone, relationship or etc. U're soooo tired that u don’t know for how long u can hang on, hold on before u gonna blow up. I’m tired. I’m sooo tired. Tired with certain friendship that I have, tired with certain person to be exact. I’m tired…

That person can make ur self-esteem become low, just with the words. Just with the words that come out from this person's mouth. This person's tongue? It sharp like a sword, no wait, its TOO sharp that it can kill... RESPECT? sometimes that person respect u, sometimes don’t. And sometimes that person can squash ur dignity, ur self -respect in front of people… & its REALLY HURT, REALLY, REALLY HURT....

Why do that person really like to messed my life? I don’t messed up that person life, but why? When that person need something, that person looking for me, that person need me. The more I quiet, the more I didn’t say anything, the more that person really go overboard with me. What this person want from me? What I have, this person have, even more than me. So, what I have that this person doesn't have? Just because I’m quiet, just because I didn’t say anything, doesn’t give that person the right to messed with me like I don't have any feeling... Why didn’t I say anything? Am I afraid? No, it because I still can think. It because we’re grown up. Can think the logic. Can think like a grown up. we’re not child anymore. We’re not kid anymore.

I’m really, really tired… tired of this person, tired of this certain friendships. Sometimes I feel like to blown up. thinking, for how long that I can hold on, hang on… For how long that I can keep it myself? Is it because I’m too quiet, keep everything to my self or bcoz mind my own business, space that this happen? I GAVE THAT PERSON MY FRIENDSHIP, but in the end….. why? What can I do? What SHOULD I do? Because I TOOOOOOOOOOOO tired….. REALLY tired….. How to keep myself from hating too much for this person? (~_~;)

YA ALLAH…. cekalkan hatiku ini….. berikanlah hatiku kekuatan untuk bertahan kepada manusia sebegini…… AMIN….

p/s: Tell me, am I wrong?

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The Climb
By Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa